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Tuesday, November 22, 2005

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i quitted poly last week.. finally out of that hellish place but im sure everyone will b shocked now.. i noe ther will b many misunderstanding right now but i find it very hard to cope in ther. my wish is to get into business course but i ended up in a 'full of maths' course.. all along in wsss, i had difficulty in maths, having slow understanding but at least it got 4 years to let me slowly understand it but in poly i had to do it in 1/2 year time. i tried to stay happy in sch but cant, its like no one's willing to study with me and teach me. and no much good friends too, or even none.. now, im out of poly but this fri im going for an interview in an admin company, hope it'll turn out fine..

if i can get the job, i'll try my best to save up for my registration in a private business school but i guess it'll b after 2 years, after i get a bike license and travelling will be much more easier for me.. for the past few weeks, i kept quarrelling with my parents bout my sch thingy but they finally gave in, i promised them to study after working.. i think no one will believe me as i might lose interest in studying in future but i noe finding a job with just an O level cert is very diff.. i wont live my life without a dip. and good job..

i noe my friends tot that its so wasted for me to quit as many of them cant get in. i noe its a pity but i find that getting in a course which im totally not interested in is truly hard to cope especially with subj. which im reali not good at. i totally had no heart to continue studying the course. i hate it and i hate going to tat school.. famous but not good.. i noe no one believe that i'll study in future as ther are live examples of friends who forsake studying and went to work which life's isnt good for them at all.. but no one understand my feelings, everytime i think of it, i feel sad.. but trust me k? i wont want to have a job with low pay, i want to lead a good life haha.. ngiap told me life is short, dun waste my life away which i wont.. i will continue upgrading myself. i noe everyone hopes the best for me, dun worry guys! anyway i felt a lot happier when im out of the sch, a lot happier when i noe im going to do things which im happy with.. sorry guys, somehow i felt i have done something sorry to u all.. i still feel so sad when i tot of everyone...

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