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Thursday, May 01, 2008

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well, i've took the courage to sing for you. in order to attend, i did and u said i could. but now, you're asking me why must i go. seems like what i've told you previously, you've forgotten it all. i just want to be there for you. like i said, i know i can't do anything bout it but at least let me be there for you and i just want to be there. do i deserve that attitude of yours? im feeling so terrible these few days. sorrow filled my heart up within a second when i see him happily with others except for me. seems like he's so turned off upon seeing me and does he still love me? im like the only one hanging on and he drifts further and further away. what did i do wrong? sometimes i feel loved, sometimes i don't- its back to square one. what did i do wrong that you're giving me the cold shoulder. you're just like an unpredictable storm. you hate me to probe further but you refuse to tell me anything. for that, i said nvm. yet you could shoot me straight 'why ask then' before i finish my sentence

i just know you as leon, as my boyfriend. knowing that someone called leon actually existed who came into my life and now, my boyfriend. nothing else. i don't know you from inside, i know nuts bout what you actually are thinking bout. its very tiring to guess your mind. you can ask me to heck care, not to ask so much, no need to guess what you're thinking. for you, easy to say but is it easy to fufill? is that what a couple should be? you say im young, naive or watch too much shows but in fact, you're the one who's too heck care, cant be bothered. from what i know bout your past, you asked what have you done wrong to be treated badly by your ex, you cared so much. now, when it comes to me being your girlfriend, you totally cant be bothered. why cant you put yourself into my shoes and consider bout my feelings? i am you back then.

you've said sorry, and that you'll try to tell me whats in your mind but you never try at all. so i guessed what you've said to me after le baroque that day is nothing but drunken words? am i such a fool to believe all that. my heart's crying, my heart's bleeding and im on the verge of giving up.

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