[[ life, less ]]

Saturday, June 21, 2008

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i should say im desperate for help but i know its all in myself and him hopefully. maybe i should just stop hoping for hopes. im not good when it comes to talking, i've tried telling him what my feelings are but it just fail throughout. well, its good someone invented a blogger though, i can type out every little details in.

right now i can only act like nothing happen, he too. how i wished so badly to tell him that i feel so threatened in this relationship. and all i see is him ignoring those calls and deleting those msgs but who knows what's going on actually. he can jolly well did these just because im around. if i try to talk things out again, i know what's the result even before trying. he's gonna get pissed off. its not that i didnt try, i've tried several times and the results are still the same.

the day when im on mc, i was out with von and unexpectedly, she asked if i missed him. instead, i asked if i should miss him. maybe i dont really miss the leon i know right now but i missed the leon i know from the past few months.. badly.. the leon i know before things start to change.

[[ cheers ]] |2:00 AM|