[[ life, less ]]

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

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thought it through? come to think of it, i had ever asked my mum if she's worried that dad might have a scandal outside and her reply was, no. in a relationship, if the other party doesnt love you anymore, its not gonna work by forcing it. you cant make a person love you if he doesnt love you anymore. and if he's gonna hide it from you, he'll take what he'd got to keep it all from you.

im tired, and he's tired too. now, i cant be bothered anymore. its true, no point worrying so much. i could say my heart is half dead already. times and times again, different girls from different countries. that's kind of wow. each texting i miss you and i love you, call me back as such. you claim that you dont return their calls, that they might really liked you but you dont care. it seems this way to me on the surface though. deleting all their msgs and ignoring all their calls when im around but who knows what you're actually been doing? your mum told me i must trust you and love means trust and respect. its true but tell me which girl can take all these? to treat like nothing happen though sometimes i cant take it anymore and questions start surfacing. im in such a threatened position in this relationship. just dont say you're maintaining this relationship which you totally dont care at all. it hurts everytime.

im giving all my love out to someone who doesnt reciprocate at all, and to be hoping stupidly that one day, he'll return it back to me. im giving my love all out to him yet he can send sweet msgs to someone he doesnt really know and i dont think he'd ever realized that he'd never did that for me and says or text i love you to me for months anymore. just what does he want? love me, keep me. if not, just tell me and i know what to do. dont give me false hope, sometimes passionate and sometimes cold and hard like a stone.

im on mc today and you doesnt ask why. i had already told lin, that you could be feeling happy instead to have peace without seeing me for one day. im not going to contact you throughout and lets see if you will take the intiative to text me. seriously, i dont have any hopes in it.

[[ cheers ]] |6:20 PM|