[[ life, less ]]

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

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whats the change in you? since when did we change? because you dont answer my questions, because of my questions or because of not returning my calls? none are the root of these changes. i can just tell you, its the beginning of march, the beginning of your case.

since then , when im still unaware of what's happenning, i can only guess and which appears to be right. that something went wrong. im your girlfriend, and when i came to know about the issue, i can only watch you- somewhat struggling in deep thoughts. i know i cant do anything about it, so i thought i just want to be there for you. its hurts me so much to see you like this and thats why questions keep surfacing, hoping that you'll share a load with me. but its all my wishful part of thinking cos you're the kind who keeps his heart and mouth shut. which ends up, my approach went totally wrong and my good intentions made you thought of avoiding me, to avoid my questions. indeed its been such a rough road for the both of us these few months. now i know why you've been forcing me to break off with you.

to be exact, you say you're advising me to break off but rather, your tone is already forcing me. you say you have no future, no directions of where you're going or where it'll lead you to. been trying to live life as days goes by and doesnt have much time left. had already decided to break off with me and not to look me up after you're in. if thats what you think, then you're totally wrong cos no one has ever given up hope on you, you're the stupid fellow who's giving up on yourself and everything in life yet you can still laugh when i made this remark. and if that what you think, instead of rejecting me and my care and concern, why cant you make me happier for this period of time?

so what if im young, so what if you claim that you dun wan to waste my time. so what if you dun wan me to wait for a hopeless, useless guy as what u say u are. so what if there is alot of guys who are alot better than you? all these are up to me to decide.
i've already told you- if you walk a path with no directions, i'll walk with you. if you wan to live life as days goes by, i'll accompany you. if you walk blindly, even if it means to knock on every little things, even if you were to bleed after hitting on, i will walk to the end with you. so stop pushing me away. i choose my own path, i choose who i wan to walk with ok?

from now on, if i ever try to make a step forward, to care for you more, its ok if you reject or take a step backward. cos you cant stop me from loving you, from caring for you even if you reject it all.

[[ cheers ]] |3:10 PM|