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Monday, June 09, 2008

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which girl can accept her boyfriend having another girlfriend? another girl saying i love you and i miss you. if things were like what you've said, that you hasnt been contacting her, why is she msging and calling frequently? it could be you're actually contacting her still if not, she loves you so much that for so long, she's still persevering, hoping that you'll call her back. which you really did and refuse to tell me what you've told her.

then why would you like me in the first place? and made me fall in love with you so deeply. it hurts and you arent going to do anything about it. after so many months, 10 months to be exact, you can ask if someone from other country is counted as your girlfriend. it was then i came to know bout it. my heart sinks to a bottomless pit, i always thought im your girlfriend but out of the blue, i've became the third party. you refuse to draw a clear cut just because you simply dont care, be it whether you care bout her or not, i just feel that she's back.

i dont know what's the reason why you're forcing me to break off with you. everyone's telling me that if i love you, i must bear with all these, after your case ends but its been few months, no ups but just down, down and going under. how long am i able to bear with all these? like i've said, you're an unpredictable storm which sent me crying for help but no one is able to lend a helping hand to me. or instead, no one's willing to help.

i've cried a several times and you're only getting colder and colder. its as if i could break down any time but a warm touch of your palm against mine with locking fingers brought warmth to my almost dying cold cold heart. 80% of the time, snow is falling and only 20% of the time, a flame kindles in the cold wind. i can only hope for the 20% to last longer.

asking if you still loves me, you said no without hesitating then asks me to go back and think bout it. and if i cant feel your love, whats the point of being together. so what does it mean? thanks for the gucci wallet but i've not used it till now. maybe you can send it back to her, to show that you're appreciative. she could be more worthy of it? i just want to let you know, i dont need your gifts, i need your love. but if you refuse to make a clear cut, i will follow your decision. i'll let it be. end up, no matter how hard it is for me to accept it, i will still accept it. dont say breaking off will do me good. it doesnt and my heart doesnt want to let go.

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