[[ life, less ]]

Monday, August 18, 2008

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all i wanted is a peaceful life yet all is disturbed and gone. though its too early and young for a 20 year old girl but its tiring to stress and work and at the same time worry bout personal issues. if im given the chance to choose, i'll definitely choose living a life stress on work yet on the other side, to have a load off my mind on relations.

im starting to think that she's the reason for all the changes. i was at Palace this morning and guess who i saw. him. he met the girl there and got her something from 7-11. seems like he's happy chatting with her, something which we had never done for months. probably he'll be alot happier this way? it kinda tingles my heart very much and ouch, it hurts. indeed, ignorance is a bliss, i would have felt better without knowing and seeing so much.

even after we broke off, he always got cigarettes for me, even asked if i had taken lunch and took the initiative to bring me lunch. last night when we decided not to have dinner tgt, he called back and asked to have dinner tgt. he asked if i had changed my off day and even asked me out on this coming off, probably he just need a friend who has a car? most probably all that he'd done is just plainly friends and due to daily routines we had for the past one year.

from this, he really meant what he say by being normal friends. though i dont feel good initially yet after some thoughts, i start to let go and i think im taking this quite easily and within my pride. probably soon after i'll be real fine.

[[ cheers ]] |11:00 AM|