[[ life, less ]]

Wednesday, August 06, 2008

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its been 6 days. memories filled me up everywhere i go. and wherever i go, every places we've been to before simply reminds me of him. we'd covered almost every places so where can i hide? out in town, reminds me of the four months working in Nike, sending and fetching me whenever he's free. Outside LV boutique where we'd met after he came back from thailand, the hug he gave which took my breathe away. The long walk we took from bugis to ps on my birthday, the birthday song he sang so shyly. every route i drove simply leads me to his house. even back at my room which i sometimes dread going into, the purple walls which we spent two days painting, the bed we hugged and slept soundly in. and i dread the idea of knocking off, i dread the idea of being alone, the emptiness in my heart. knowing that he's no longer mine to keep.

i just cant help wanting to see him and msg him. but truth always hurt, i just knew more and there's more for me to know. maybe ignorance is a bliss. at least someone finally told me the truth although its abit too late. i always thought the world is simple and pretty but all along im the one who's too naive to think that way. the world is actually dark and ugly. i need to leave here, i need a getaway to sort out my thoughts before im back on track again. as what leon always say, im 20, time to grow up.

im not alone, von's always there for me these few days. kelvin always happened to be there when i needed someone. i've been wanting to let sarah know, so i guess talking in person is always better but we have tight schedules. i know im not alone but its the loneliness in my heart.

[[ cheers ]] |11:00 AM|