[[ life, less ]]

Friday, September 05, 2008

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"she's getting over it and starting new life. i should get over it too." i dont dare to come into assumption that he's referring to me but in fact, he is. he says i've changed and he thought this is the life i always wanted and is much happier now. he says im having lotsa new friends and enjoying it but what he see is only what he see, he doesnt understand my feelings deep down. what i really wanted is to have a peaceful and stable life, back to the days when we were really happy. dont i want a life taking care of our pets, going into JB, looking at new pets and shop around? dont i want to rest and relax, watch a movie after a tired working week?

like i told you before, everywhere i go reminds me of you. im lucky to have friends who's willing to accompany me, so that i wont think so much. like i told you before, the heart feels so empty and lonely without you- i choose to avoid, to go out everyday cos im scared and dont want to be alone. you're the one who told me to start a new life and everything will be fine yet im the one who cant do it. after that day, i did think things through. i've told my closest friends that i've moved on, and i no longer think of you anymore. i realize im lying to myself again. whether i'll wait is no longer an issue cos i'll let fate and you to decide. if you think there's not even a single space for another chance, just tell me and i'll really move on with my life. i still remember that you used to tell me not to sink too deep into this relationship, its true we never know what's going to happen in the near future but since the day i said i love you instead of i like you, its the day im willing to commit. yet you are the one who's not willing to and ended up liking a whore. in the near future? this is what happened.

you're always hot and cold, its hard to keep up with your pace. well, í've learnt to look on the brighter side of life.

[[ cheers ]] |11:45 AM|