[[ life, less ]]

Sunday, December 28, 2008

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this day, i've decided to leave you. i want to be out of this cat and dog race which never ends. a part of me doesnt want to leave but its no longer a point for me to hang on. im not going to turn a blind eye to all and just as expected, your answer is just an 'ok'. so this more than a year long relationship has come to this point where you cant be bothered anymore then whats the point for me? its very disappointing but since you can accept it so readily then its really the time for me to move on.

[[ cheers ]] |11:30 PM|

Thursday, December 04, 2008

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things have changed and i cant find myself back, things can never be the same again. i will do what i can for you but dont be surprised that one day, i'll leave. you might not be bothered, it doesnt matter to you. i want to love you still but love doesnt mean i have to have you by my side. you will be happier without me and with me around, its just a burden. like you've said, this is the worst you've ever had..

probably the one out there is the one for you, the one who loves you so much. no matter how unhappy, how bothered i am about this whole thing, it just doesnt stop and you doesnt seem to bother either. anyway the limit is almost there. this whole year isnt easy for me and you think that its alright for you to treat me this way. some things i just dont understand and never will i understand. you'll only see what she'd done and what she's willing to do for you, but you will never see this part of me. i held on although you've hurt me so.. i tried not to mention anything but some things will never be erased from the back of the memories.

[[ cheers ]] |10:15 AM|