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Sunday, January 10, 2010

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this day, the day which changed everybody's perpective of life. everyone's heart is filled with regret, mind filled with (i should have done this and i should have done that)s and eyes filled with tears. yes, no one expected things to turn out this way and it shouldnt turn out this way at all! totally inhumane and cruel. she's gone now and there's nothing i can do for her, not even a proper send-off. as the chinese saying goes, 'heaven has eyes'. we shall see and he will get what he deserve but a simple death sentence is too easy on him. he should feel thousand times more of how my dear friend felt at the brink of death.

death- a word which became very scary all of a sudden. experiencing the loss of a friend now and i fear of losing more, we've still got a long way to go. i've learnt that its just a thin line between life and death and anything can happen in the next second.

actually i didnt do my part as a friend and am i suited to be called her friend? totally unaware of how she'd been for the past many months like i've lost touch of the world. where am i when she needed someone and imagine putting myself into her shoe now. am i feeling what she's feeling back then? lonely, scared and helpless. it does send shivers down my spine. this whole day my mind is so preoccupied, but with nothing. i cant get over it, cant accept it and wished that its not true. wake myself up from this bad dream or whatever. we cant turn back time and i kept recalling the news i saw.

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many years back, we're a group that hang out at the arcade so frequently. living in our own world having fun and so much laughters from evening till midnight. i remember our favorite games, photo hunt (everyone's trying very hard to break our own record) and beatmania too.

our group, lamerz.

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in life, people chose and walked a different direction and pace but since our paths crossed and we met, its an affinity that we became friends. once a lamerz, always a lamerz. you'll be remembered and may you rest in peace in paradise.

in loving memories..

[[ cheers ]] |11:00 PM|